My wife thought I didn’t want her anymore.

“I’m tired.”

That became my excuse. Sometimes before she’d even tried to touch me.

I wanted her. But after losing my erection a few times, I started expecting it. We’d be kissing and I’d already be thinking, Is it happening again?

So I stopped starting things.

One night she asked, “Is it me?”

I hated that I’d made her wonder.

I finally told her what was going on. The embarrassment. The checking. Why I kept finding reasons to go to bed later than her.

She listened. Then she asked why I’d been trying to handle it alone.

I didn’t want another excuse. I wanted to do something.

I booked an appointment to get answers. I started paying attention to my sleep and stress. And while looking into daily vitality supplements, I found Lūmina.

The routine appealed to me: two softgels a day. Something simple enough to fit into breakfast, without turning my morning into a project.

I wanted to give my wellbeing the attention I’d been putting off.

But I also stopped making my wife guess.

Now, when something’s bothering me, I tell her. I kiss her because I want to kiss her. We’re working through this together.

That matters to me. Because I never stopped wanting my wife.

I just needed to stop hiding from her.